.noises and kisses.

2004-03-18T13:41:00.000-05:00

Rufio vs. Brand New: Brand New Saves the Day vs. Taking Back Sunday: Taking Back Sunday New Found Glory vs. The get up kids: The Get Up Kids Jet Vs. Aerosmith: Jet Simple Plan vs. Good Charlotte: Good Charlotte The All American Rejects vs. Dashboard Confessional: ermmmm Dashboard Confessional Bright Eyes vs. From Autumn to Ashes: Bright Eyesss Dashboard Confessional vs. Something Corporate:

2004-03-11T17:48:00.000-05:00

This is when Emo was about 2 months old. When we first got him <33 This is Emo now <33 I know you all want to have relations with my dog.. I went to lunch with Sarhada, my sister. We went to Arby's and I threw up. I don't know what's wrong with me. But I can't eat out and I don't eat very much anymore. It's not the diet because I can actually eat alot but I eat one meal or less a day. I

2004-03-09T17:32:00.000-05:00

I lost 4 pounds. I weighed in last night. Total of 16 pounds. Pretty darn good. I've been doing it for likr 5-6 weeks. I want to lose like 15 - 30 more pounds and that will take a while but it will be worth it. So wish me luck <3 I was thinking today of how I used to be such an outgoing person. And I used to go to teen clubs and dance. Haha. I was really a good dancer but it looked funny because

2004-03-04T23:31:00.000-05:00

i couldn’t find you last night for quite some time wishing to tell you everything running through my mind. we would’ve drove down over the bridge and towards the sea parking the sad car in between twenty-fourth and fifth. i want to write a song about our love but there is none... i want to write a song about our love but there is none still I continue driving the lonely road with thoughts

2004-03-03T00:34:00.000-05:00

Coheed...sucks. end of story. Thursday <333 Was amazing omg. I caught one of the guitar picks they through out woo yea. And they ended their set with Jet Black New Year and I loveeee that song. AFI .. was so awesome. They've got great energy and Davey is so beautiful haha. I was front row, it owned. I met 2 gay boys. Got their numbers. I'm excited about that haha. They are cuties. Not

2004-02-28T14:47:00.000-05:00

being sick blows. the end.

2004-02-26T21:42:00.000-05:00

I made 2 bracelets and got 3 already made ones hehe <3 i saw madcap last night. friggin awesome. <33 xo

2004-02-23T13:27:00.000-05:00

I love how I can never sleep. I was in this routine of going to sleep early. And I stayed up late. Then later.. and here I am at 3:00 am and I am wide awake. I usually watch tv and watch Lloyd in Space at 4:30 LMFAO. I don't know why, but that show entertains me. I guess since it's at 4:30 in the morning it must like...take over my brain or something. My mom came over Saturday night... and

2004-02-21T15:58:00.000-05:00

pictures... random pix of mwah xo

2004-02-20T15:14:00.000-05:00

I wrote this song...with the assistance of Becca =) all the times ive been let down you were supposed to save me and keep me from drowning pick me up dont let me fall farther than i already have dont let me slip away from this reality so here i am im falling again all the times i told you my secrets the times you forgot to listen and tell it'd be okay the way you said you'd always be there but

2004-02-20T00:29:00.000-05:00

The longest survey ever... 1. Name: Rachel Anne Shilling 2. Birthday: 12.03.86 3. Location: Jacksonville, Florida yo. 4. Where else have u lived: Ponte Vedra, 5 minutes from Jacksonville... haha 5. School/mascot/colors: um.. when I attended High School at Fletcher High School the colors were purple and gold I think and our mascot was a Senator.. rawkin. 6. Zodiac sign: Sagitarrius 7. Shoe size:

2004-02-18T18:12:00.000-05:00

You are a PHOENIX in your soul and yourwings make a statement. Huge and born of flame,they burn with light and power and rebirth.Ashes fall from your wingtips. You are anamazingly strong person. You survive, evenflourish in adversity and hardship. A firmbeliever in the phrase, 'Whatever doesn't killyou only makes you stronger,' you rarely fearfailure. You know that any mistake you makewill teach

2004-02-18T14:16:00.000-05:00

So here I am.. bored. I am listening to The Used. They are such a great band. And so awesome live too. They have a new cd coming out this year I think and I am so excited for it. This is one of those cds where I can listen through every song. And I can't do that with too many cds. Concerts Coming Up:: AFI + Thursday = 3.2 Copeland + Mae = 3.3 Yellowcard + Something Corporate = 3.26 Mest +

2004-02-15T15:47:00.000-05:00

Being a girl is hard. I don't know what I want. And I'm sorry that I can't decide yet. I am only 17 and have experienced nothing. There isn't much I can do. I am in no hurry, especially now. I've got dreams and goals that I plan on achieving. And whatever happens, happens for a reason. I hope everyone had a good valentines day. Happy 3 days late Riker woot. xo

2004-02-09T21:18:00.000-05:00

So... hmm.. whats been new.. I dyed my hair tonight. It's black with a purple haze/tint to it. I like it =) I weighed in today. 3 weeks into my diet I've lost 14 pounds. That makes me happy. I've got a valentine this year, yes yes. We will see how that all ends up haha. I got new boots today. They are black.. 9 bucks from Kmart. Not much else. I don't feel like doing a long update.. just

2004-02-07T17:53:00.000-05:00

rachy is in love :D xo

2004-02-04T00:36:00.000-05:00

I freakin LOVE senses fail dude. Shawna and I were second row and it got so fucking hot. But it was so much fun. I got so sweaty hahah. I love them because a) they get so into it b) buddy is fucking crazy c) the whole crowd gets into it. And it makes it out for sucha better show! Wahoo. Hehe =) I got my pictures back from the Diffuser show (thanks to shawna) I look like crap but thats okay. The

2004-02-02T23:40:00.000-05:00

Disregaurd me ever hanging out with Daniel.. from the last post. What a bunch of bull shit.. lol. I guess I am very naive and I'm glad people like to toy with my emotions.. I just don't get it. But that's okay.. I don't need a 15 year old in my life making me sad, you know. I am 17.. try dating UP. Try dating at all..ahha but definetly date up. Except for one exception from a certain 16 yr old *

2004-02-01T20:54:00.000-05:00

(10) bands i obsess over: 1. silverchair 2. the early november 3. taking back sunday 4. killing heidi 5. blink 182 6. lifehouse 7. the postal service 8. morrissey/the smiths 9. the cure 10. copeland (9) things i look forward to: 1. my band 2. kissing 3. boyfriend 4. concerts 5. moving 6. recording in a studio 7. sex ;D 8. challanges 9. growing up (8) things i like to wear: 1. shoelaces as

2004-01-29T22:05:00.000-05:00

New Haircut!

2004-01-28T15:23:00.000-05:00

- got my sisters Toyota 4 Runner. cant drive alone til the summer though. i got a sticker for the back of it. The Used. rockin I know. not much else is new really =) rachel xo

2004-01-25T13:22:00.000-05:00

I got to Johns house around 7:45 and chilled for a while. His girlfriend came home and we just talked and what not. So John and I went in his music room and he was showing me some chords to play and he was playing drums and we had a small little jam session. Then me and Jen (his girlfriend) played Chinese Checkers and listened to some music and talked a little bit and then John and I went back

2004-01-24T14:03:00.000-05:00

Hello. What's going on. Not a thing here. My dad and sister went to breakfast and then went car shopping so I am here by myself for a while. My mom is coming over around 6:00 tonight and we are going to go to John's house around 7:00-7:30 and I'm going to hang out for a while. We are going to play some guitar and whatnot and jam. Should be fun times. Not too much else has happened. Been bored.

2004-01-20T11:52:00.000-05:00

Ok so I used to hate this song. But it turns out I really like it. I am not a huge fan of Eve6 at all, but "Heres to the Night" is really a good song I think. I feel like I can relate to it since I'm growing up and have so much ahead of me and soon I'm going to be leaving so much behind... It makes me sad and it really gives me the chills. Heres To The Night:: So denied so I lied are you the

2004-01-17T01:53:00.000-05:00

Going to Amelia Island tomorrow. Staying the night at the Ritz Carlton because my uncle is paying. Going to a fancy dinner and all that jazz. Be back sunday =)

2004-01-15T01:20:00.000-05:00

Josh: you have to do what the music does to you Josh: if you do anything else it's fake Mascara xo: i know but alot of boys dont think girls arent as good as boys are to make like.. music like punk, emo, pop punk, alternative. and stuff like that Josh: who gives a fuck, music is music, if you get into it to make anyone but yourself happy, then you are in it for the wrong reasons, there are alot

2004-01-10T19:08:00.000-05:00

This is Josh Harrington. He is a bmx guy. And I am in love with him. Haha. Time for dinner!

2004-01-09T11:54:00.000-05:00

this is me =) rachel xo

2004-01-08T18:16:00.000-05:00

If you live in the Jacksonville Florida area... make sure to check out Diffuser + Silverstein + Spitalfield at Jack Rabbits this Sunday, January 11th Doors open at 7:00 pm And admission is only 8 dollars. So come out and support 3 really cool bands. Especially Diffuser because they are my homies. The end :D

2004-01-08T11:03:00.000-05:00

I did a new little layout. Yay. rachel xo

2004-01-07T00:39:00.000-05:00

If you want to change your life. You can. You can't sit around and expect it to change on its own. You have to be the one that decides you want a change. Everyone can change anything they want about themselves. Or their lives. Some people are dealt really shitty hands. But hey life moves on. And things will get better if you really want them to. Find ways to avoid the situations you hate or

2004-01-06T00:17:00.000-05:00

Haha, oh god. I don't know why but I love watching gay guys kiss. Boyskissing community here on LJ is the best thing ever. It makes me happy or something. Tomorrow I have guitar lessons again. I stopped for the entire month of December. And I am back up again. Guitar and voice lessons. And I am glad to be getting out of the house even if it is just for an hour or so. Wednesday I am planning on

2004-01-02T21:20:00.000-05:00

Woo. I rearranged my room and cleaned it major. It looks a little bigger. I got a new cd tower and it holds 110 cds and its like almost as tall as me LOLOL and ive got most of it filled ive probably got 120 cds but ive got alot of burned cds so the thin cases like double up. So it works out good. Then I got this little folder holder (haha im a rhymer) and I am using it to hold my records. It's

2003-12-30T20:44:00.000-05:00

Shawna and I went out again tonight. We went out yesterday to the mall and wal mart and ate dinner at her house and then we left and cruised the beach and raced this celica, and because we are so cool, we won. So then tonight we cruised the beach and went to georges music and carribean connection and then went to el potro for fried ice cream. it was so good. so we've decided we need to bring

2003-12-28T18:25:00.000-05:00

Yayy!! I am home. It feels good to be back after forever of driving. So let me just break it down for you all :D Left on Saturday. Got to Middlesboro Kentucky on Sunday and I met Becca! It was alot of fun but weird at first. We went to Ryans for lunch and I went in their car and as I was getting out to go inside I literally like FELL out of their car and like swung the door open and it was

2003-12-20T06:04:00.000-05:00

Leaving for Ohio in a couple of hours. I will be gone until the 28th. Long time xD You all know you will miss me sOoO much. Only a few people read this so oh well haha. Kristin - dont miss me too much haha <3 Heather N - have a wonderful xmas and i hope all works well with you and kevin Heather G - i hope you get your package and love it <3 until the 28th! rachel xo

2003-12-19T10:04:00.000-05:00

lmao... jizzness xD becca <3 lmfao. and bob. oh lord what a night last night lmao rachel xo

2003-12-18T19:01:00.000-05:00

I love The Smiths. Haha. 80's pop dude. Morrissey is hot shit. His voice is, really. Haha, now I am listening to Duran Duran. Go me. 80's pop can always make me smile because it's so cheesy and cute I guess haha. I am getting Dan a Lagwagon record. He has all their cd's. But I thought a record would be like a cool collectable thing. I got him double plaidium. He says he loves that one so. I can

2003-12-16T20:10:00.000-05:00

.ive never seen you're heart this tired. .i've never seen your spirit held down. - Copeland I feel like updating again <3 I have hair dye all up in my head, lyke whoa. I am re-dying my hair black. I have like 2 inch roots and brown streaks through-out my hair. Yow. My hair will probably fall out when I'm like 30 because of all the hair dye. Oh well, my hair is still healthy now, so why worry

2003-12-16T08:48:00.000-05:00

well. blah. i dont have much to write in here today. i actually haven't been asleep. Yea I freakin stayed up all night. Yesterday I went to bed, woke up, napped until like 2 oclock. So therefore. I've basically been up since 2 oclock yesterday. So great. I have such bad sleeping habits. I had like a breakdown beyond breakdowns last night. Something is inside of my head and it's freaking my out.

2003-12-16T02:49:00.000-05:00

god....................................................... i am not happy =\

2003-12-14T02:36:00.000-05:00

God, the things you do to me. The things I do for you. Haha. You owe me ;D What I would give for one night... haha. rachel x

2003-12-13T08:29:00.000-05:00

*I can see all the little things that once could make me whole Longwave = Tidal Wave Kristin. I love you okay. Not like that I mean I like you alot but then I love you like a friend. I am not mad at you just confused with myself so don't take it out on yourself. And if I made you feel that way, I'm sorry. <333 Going more Christmas shopping today. Happy Happy Joy Joy. Going to be out all

2003-12-12T17:36:00.000-05:00

I got a new shirt from wal mart. Yay. Its black long sleeves with an attached white spaghetti strap shirt. Can you say moo :D rachel x

2003-12-11T22:35:00.000-05:00

I got my hair cut. shorter in the back. kept the length in the front. thats it but its in two small pig tails :D haha. I got my eyebrows waxed but you probably cant tell that. woo.

2003-12-10T23:30:00.000-05:00

*post deleted cuz i love kristin haha*

2003-12-10T16:18:00.000-05:00

picture time. excuse my uglyness =) *pix taken out :D* rachel x

2003-12-10T02:07:00.000-05:00

*deleted too* rachel x

2003-12-08T21:38:00.000-05:00

I got my 2 cd/2 dvd Silverchair: Live from Faraway Stables set in the mail today. I watched both dvds. Oh my freakin god. It was so awesome <33 Like over 2 hours long haha. Man... I got chills listening to him and like little tears in my eyes man from watching. They rock so hard. It was funny during Anthem of Y2K this dude jumped up on stage and was dancing around and Daniel is like.. let him

2003-12-07T21:14:00.000-05:00

Yea, I went to blockbuster and rented Bruce Almighty. You could cal me some what of a stalker. Jeremiah works there. He looks like this.. Side Show Bob HAHA he wears clothes like that too lmfao jk. No but his hair reminds me of that and his facial expression right there is something he does. Haha oh god. So yea I walk into blockbuster and I get a "Hey!" and it was freaking Eric, the Eric

2003-12-06T14:50:00.000-05:00

So yea, my birthday money is almost gone I've got like ten dollars left plus I get ten more dollars. So I've actually got twenty. With it I've gotten: 4 cds: 1) Yellowcard - Ocean Avenue 2) Story of the Year - Page Avenue 3) Brand New - Deja Entendu 4) Something Corporate - North 3 records: 1) ...and out comes the wolves - Rancid 2) answer this and stay fashionable - AFI 3) the swiss army

2003-12-05T01:23:00.000-05:00

Yea, so my dad got home around 5:30. He's like you have a message on the cell phone. So I checked it and it was Ryan from Matchbook Romance confirming me on guestlist, I got in for free, woop woop. haha. So when I got there I went out back and I saw Ryan and Andy from MBR and they were like Rachellll and I told them I didn't have my tape recorder for the interview so I would get it online

2003-12-03T03:27:00.000-05:00

happy birthday to me. i am seventeen. woot. rachel x

2003-12-02T20:15:00.000-05:00

hopefully that will show up????? if it doesnt pop up as a picture, then click this http://img.villagephotos.com/p/2003-4/171960/Picture857.jpg Its my nose piercing I just got =) rachel x

2003-12-01T13:58:00.000-05:00

I did it in 35 seconds.I deserved a B-!!Take the How Dexterous Are You? Quiz!!

2003-12-01T12:41:00.000-05:00

Ah, monday. What a crappy day. Last night (3 am this morning) I threw up, oh only about 4 times. Lovely isn't it. I have something really wrong with me and its scaring me. I took one of those pepcid ac things. If it doesn't work in a couple days I'm gonna bed my dad to go to the doctor because it isn't normal to be throwing up 2-5 times everyday. And it's not me sticking my finger down my throat.

2003-11-29T12:13:00.000-05:00

I wonder how many people actually read this :D Probably like, one person. Yay for that pne person haha. So, yes, there is only 4 days left until my birthday. I shall be 17. I am very excited. I've had the official countdown on for like, 20 some days haha. Hopefully they day of my birthday I will get my nose pierced. You don't really schedule an appointment you just wait until a piercer is

2003-11-26T22:17:00.000-05:00

Wow i made my journal all sexified rachel x

2003-11-26T15:06:00.000-05:00

I think it's funny how people can grow apart so fast. Its no ones fault, things just change. Ex: this girl I know her name is Heather, I've known her since the 2nd grade. We were best friends, things got bad in 3rd grade, we were friends again in 4th. Not so much in 5th and 6th because we were in different "crowds" and if I could take that back, I would. 7th and 8th grade we were pretty close.

2003-11-26T01:06:00.000-05:00

so what month is it? My December - Linkin Park This is my December, This is my time of the year This is my December, This is all so clear Just wish that I didnat feel like there was something I missed Give it all away Just wish that I didn't feel like there was something I missed Give it all away This is my December, This is my snow covered home This is my December, This is me alone And I (Just

2003-11-25T18:04:00.000-05:00

yea yea another pointless post =) i am about to go to good ole walley world...Wal mart... to get my prescription sunglasses. Woo doggies. No one probably reads this.. or will ever read this and I'm really fine with that. I guess it makes it more personal. And I never know if people do since there is no commenting and what not. So I can write and if people hate it... fuck you :D because I dont

2003-11-25T12:32:00.000-05:00

Hello there. I am going to try to do this right. It's a bit confusing to be honest. I thought I'd make a journal here just because I did. ha. I also have a livejournal and I just got rid of xanga because xanga sucks. For those who don't know me: My name is Rachel and I am from Jacksonville Florida. I will be 17 on December 3rd. I love to play guitar and sing. I also write songs and poems and

2003-11-25T12:19:00.000-05:00

test test test. rachel x